Big Cat's Thoughts on Life

So, went to go see Snow White today and I was soo excited! Towards the end of the movie the film fucks up and we dont even get to see the end of it! My friends and I were so pissed!

First, the film fucked up and they fixed it for it to do it again just a few mins later. Then they wait like 15 mins for them to say, “we’re gonna fix it but it’s gonna take 10 mins if you wanna wait, but we’ll give you a free movie pass as youre leaving.” So, we all wait in the theater for another 20 mins for them to just say “sorry no movie for you!” So, they give passes as we leave. But, I got to thinking…they said they were gonna give us a free pass when we had to wait to see the end of the movie, so really they should have gave us 2 passes! 

Anyways, movie was good, what I saw of it. The employees said there was only about 15-20 mins of the movie left. So, maybe I can see the end sometime this week.

Havin a bad day. But, Im going to see Snow White tmrw and Im super hyped for that!

When I was a child I thought that if I feel asleep I would die. So, I would try to stay awake for as long as I could and when I woke up I would think that it was a miracle that I was still alive. My mom would get so mad because I would make her sleep with me, but I never told her why. 

Earlier in the week, I learned a friend had died in his sleep. He had a heart murmur and they say it was a peaceful death. In a strange way it has brought all this back to me. So, if you can tell what Im getting to, I have not been sleeping well this week. Part of me thinks, that’s the way to die if you were to. Asleep and not feeling, or knowing, what is happening. But, then it scares me. I hope I wake up!  Im sure when he closed his eyes he did not think it would be for the last time.

Is it wrong to want a man with money? I feel like it’s a very important quality on my list.

You must have a job. Ambition. Education. You must have a driver’s license and a vehicle. You should have your own place i.e. NOT live with your parents. Girls living with their parents at this age is a completely different situation. You dont have to spoil me rotten but nice dinners, movies, gifts. I feel that a lady deserves to be treated a certain way…probably why I havent dealt with any of the jokers in this city. 

The one man I do want is thousands of miles away from me! How are we going to make this work? 

It is soooo cute! It’s another finger tat and it doesnt hurt nearly as much as the mustache did. Ill post a picture tmrw when I look more rested (if ya know what I mean). Let’s see how long I can keep this one from Mama. LOL 

It’s rumored that Alexander Skarsgard thinks he would make a great Christian Grey. And, obviously, I agree! I just dont see how they could make the movies without an NC-17 rating. They are just so deliciously dirty.

I love babies! I want one so dearly, but I know that timing is everything. I never figured out what I wanted to do career wise, because I thought I would get married after college and have babies and be a mom. I still want that so badly! I had such a plan and it didnt go the way I wanted. I think that is why I am so confused with life and finding a job, because I know what I want but it feels so far away. I also want it to go the way it’s suppose to—find a man, get married (or at least be engaged), and then have the baby in the baby carriage! Im almost 30! 30! So all this shit needs to happen pretty damn soon if you ask me. Im already like 5 years behind, at least.

P.S. This man I find is DIRTY rich and I wont need to have a job because I will be bathing in   money. 

He works till 4am in NY. Its 3:30am IA time. And why is it that everytime I go to the bar there is a fight?